Woke up 4:40 am
To bed at 10:40 pm

Today will be the first day at my new job. I’ll spend 5 hours each day on it, and don’t plan to spend more — apart from some extraordinary situations. 5 hours at this work will allow me to earn, as I calculated, more or less USD 1000–1050 per month. Which is not bad for 5 hours per day (I will need to commute, but decided that I will spend this time on reading books — something I couldn’t do recently).

One always needs to take the hours into consideration. So…

Woke up 5:00 am
To bed at 11:00 pm

I think I’m in one particular aspect very similar to people like Don McCullin, Charles Bukowski, or Antony Hopkins, and many other artists. I like to be alone most of my time. I like to limit the occasions when I meet people, and am in the company of people. But I can be around people, and it doesn’t bother me — in the street when I walk alone, in a café where there are other people sitting at their tables.

I don’t think there is anything wrong with that. We’re simply…

Woke up 5:00 am
To bed at 10:55 pm

Recently I’ve been thinking what it would be like to be a war photographer. Like Don McCullin. I think I might make a great war photographer — with my luck and ability to think out of the box, and my unconventional approach to almost all things in life. But it means that I might also die very easily. But that’s only maybe.

Would I want to test this hypothesis? I don’t really know. I have this weird feeling that I might want to do such test. The chances that I will…

Woke up 4:50 am
To bed at 11:10 pm

Yesterday I thought about all the projects I didn’t realize. I think there were quite many of them. And I almost always described them in this diary (said they were my plans). And I started to wonder if I’m hopeless that way.

I came to the good sounding conclusion that I am not. I think the reason I don’t do all of them is that sometimes I have a new idea and it will take the place of the older (not so good) one, and also for me to be able…

Woke up 4:10 am
To bed at 9:10 pm

37 hours without eating and I’ve just had a very early breakfast. My new record. Yesterday was OK, but near the end of day I was very tired and had a head ache. I don’t know if it was linked to not eating. Maybe it was just head ache. My stomach, on the other hand was very OK, and the longer I didn’t eat the better. I do this fasting when I feel that I ate too much, and my stomach doesn’t feel like my regular stomach, or is rebelling. …

Woke up 4:35 am
To bed at 10:00 pm

Peace. I want peace. Is peace achievable on this planet at all? Or on this plane I’m now on?

I think peace is a yet another ideal of ours which is as ridiculous as freedom. I mean on this planet. Of course I could go to some distant island and live on it alone (if it’s at all still possible in this day and age with 8 billion people on this planet), but even this would not guarantee me peace. If you’ve been part of society for as many years as…

Woke up 4:50 am
To bed at 10:50 pm

I guess I started planning a new season of my life (or in my life) in earnest. And I don’t mean season like in childhood-youth-adulthood-senior age-old age. No. That’s not what I’d do, I guess. I’m preparing to have a new adventure, new challenges, projects which might last a while — that’s what I call a season. More like a season on Netflix or something.

Just because 99% of people on this planet will hear ‘season of life’, and they’ll think it has to do with the traditional progression from birth…

Woke up 4:50 am
To bed at 10:50 pm

Saw two very interesting documentaries on Netflix. Turning Point: 9/11 and the War on Terror and Hating Peter Tatchell.

The first one has quite a lot of negative comments. People say it’s biased. And my question is, what isn’t?

Their negative comments aren’t biased? They wish!

I’m not saying it is the best documentary ever produced, but I don’t expect an unbiased approach from anything.

The fact alone that you’ve seen or heard something means you’ve filtered it. It can’t be any other way. We all do that. We all filter…